Wednesday, October 19, 2016

Stronger Than You Competition





Event 1 of the comp: Squats and Squat Cleans @85#
Leading up to the comp was stressful, and I almost dropped out three weeks prior. I had all these fears and insecurities running in my head that I wasn't good enough, strong enough, or experienced enough to compete! When I signed up in September, it was because my friend, B, and I made a deal to sign up to do our first comp together. We did not know what we were getting into. 

The day was filled with encouragement, support, and making new friends. 

My thoughts on training for my first comp: 

I spent six weeks training for this competition. What I learned about myself and CrossFit in that time has made a bigger impact on me personally than I could have imagine. As the WODs were released for the event, I became very aware of what I could not do or needed to improve upon in each event. Doubt, fear, and insecurity set in really quick. That's where my CF family came in to help me. The coaches helped me work on more technical moves, and they gave me homework to do everyday. I started practicing squats and getting my hip crease below my knees. This was not an easy task for me by any means. Everyday, I was there I got the 12" soft box out and started working on those dang squats. Honestly, I hated it, almost as much as the squat snatches that I practiced. This was the biggest issue for me getting those squats correct. In every event, we were doing squats for something...squat cleans, air squats, wall balls. So, I knew I had to get this down to be able to move forward in the comp.

Somewhere around three weeks prior to the comp, I was tired of training (mostly because I did not think I was improving on a few moves) and had put so much pressure on myself about this comp that it was not fun for me any more. I took a few days off, from CF and training so I could figure out if I really wanted to compete in this comp. At this point, I was feeling insecure about competing because of my size. I did not want to embarrass my box because I lack experience or ability to do most of these moves correctly. I was afraid of people laughing at me or wondering why my coaches or friends did not talk me out of competing. with all those doubts and fears building up in my head, I just knew I should not compete. Fear almost won this battle! 

Competing was not what I expected it to be. The day of the competition, I went in knowing my strengths and my weaknesses, and knowing those helped me prepare for each event. 

Event 1: Squats & Squat Cleans 50-40-30-20-10; 5-4-3-2-1 (12 min cap)...I squatted lower than I ever have. I'm talking full depth on those squats and squat cleans. I didn't finish them all in the 12 mins, but I was surprised with my preformance. 

Event 2: Fight Gone Bad 5 stations (1 min each) X 3 rounds. I went in with a number in my head to aim for at each station. I crushed nearly everyone of those. But, the one I'm most proud of are the box step-ups. I started box step ups because of this competition. I had not done them without holding onto a bar or having a wall for support. Practicing this event, I got 3 maybe each round, and became so frustrated because I was out of breathe each time I came to this station and would not be able to get but maybe 1. During the event, I was getting between 5-7 step-ups each time. Overall, I stayed consistent at each station during all three rounds. This was a shock to me, and am also proud of my performance 

Event 3: Max deadlift for 15 reps, then bar facing burpees (jump over the bar) . I did 15 reps at 160, then went for 170, but my weight slipped off the bar when my left hand starting giving way. 

Event 4: Squat snatches and bench press at 65#. I finished 12 snatches ( done as Overhead squat), then 12 bench presses, and 7 snatches. 

Event 5: bike for calories in 1 minute: I got 20 calories. 


Overall, the experience was very positive. I had people, many of whom I had never met, come up to me and tell me they were proud of me for pushing and how I was an inspiration. One lady asked to hear about my fitness journey. We talked about 30 minutes as I told her how I started. All of that is great, and was very encouraging for me. But, here's the thing...I never set out to be that inspiration for others. I simply started to better my health. I didn't sign up for a comp to try to impress anyone, and certainly wasn't looking to get all the praise. Don't get me wrong, it was wonderful to have the encouragement, and I wouldn't have expected anything less from such a great community, but it was overwhelming, all the attention. But, my fears and insecurities disappear partly because of those who were cheering me on and encouraging me. I was afraid of negative comments from people. I just went out there and gave it my all in every event. I surprised myself and perhaps surprised those watching. I stepped out of my comfort zone for this one, and I am glad I did. I proved to myself just what I am capable of doing, and that I can push myself just a little farther than I think. 

I'm not really sure what comes next after your first competition. Another one? maybe! But, I do know how far I can push myself and what I am able to do (and not pass out). I've set some goals for myself, but I'll just work on them without telling many people.

If you read this far, thanks! I appreciate your support and look forward to sharing my next milestone with you!

Saturday, July 2, 2016

Week 15

Before I tell you all about my week, there's something I want to share from the weekend. Stacey, Margaret, and I had a great weekend in Denton, and Waco. While we were in Denton, Stacey and I walked around downtown Denton to kill time while Margaret did training for work. 

Stacey took a photo of me that I have to share:
When I first looked at this photo, I had an unexpected reaction....I cried. You see, this is the first time that I have seen myself in a full length picture since I started this journey in January. While I never avoided being in pictures, I also wasn't the first to jump in to have a photo taken of myself. So, they are out there, but not many. Anyway, I was overwhelmed by the progress I have made on this journey. Every tear I have cried while pumping out burpees or sit ups at Crossfit has been worth it. Not only do I see a real difference, I like what I see. I am proud of how far I have come. For the first time in years (too many to count), I feel truly confident in myself. 

Okay....on to my week at CrossFit.
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Monday
The WOD today was 
60 sit ups
30 over head lunges with 15 # ball
30 Ring Rows
60 Situps
30 burpees
30 air squats with ball 15#
AMRAP
I finished 186 reps; however, I went on to finish the round. If you do the math, I only made it to 16 burpees. I wanted to finish this out and get at least one full round even if I was finishing after everyone was done. 

It was hard, but I did it and it doesn't matter if I did not finish a whole round before the 20mins was up. 

Tuesday:
EMOM 12mins
1 Clean & Jerk
8 situps
I tried the Knees to chest, but didn't last long before moving to situps. 75# for C&J

EMOM 3 Mins
5 power cleans 75#

Wednesday:
25 minute AMRAP
10 alt kettlebell snatch 25#
20 ring rows
200 m run

I got 3 rounds and 30 reps


Saturday, June 25, 2016

Week 14

Monday:
We did push ups and power cleans today. 13, 11, 9, 7, 5, 3, 1 

It was rough, but I was able to get back to lifting a little more weight. My shoulder felt a little rough afterwards, but overall it was good. And I finished. 

Tuesday:
I had an ugly day today. By that I mean, I went into the WOD with high hopes of doing better than what I actually did. We did a EMOM today, and I'm not exactly capable of doing the running 200 m in a minute. I did the WOD as best as I could, for me it was more of an AMRAP. I got 7 rounds of 200 m (scaled run) and 15 wall balls, and one lap in. 

I had a moment afterwards that made me start crying. Yes, I cried like a big baby too. Good thing is I was sweating so bad that no one knew. But, I got to thinking about how bad I have eaten over the last couple weeks. I feel like I'm going through the motions now with CF. I'm always sore lately. I know most of it is because I still carrying a lot of excess weight. Sometimes, I wish I could take a magic pill and be done with losing the weight. Of course I didn't get like this overnight, so it won't come off overnight, but dang...it is so hard right now. 

Wednesday:
Today's WOD was a short one. 
5 min AMRAP each set:

5 power snatch
15 ring rows
25 deadlifts

2 minute break

5 push jerk
15 ring rows
25 deadlifts

I got a total of 116

Then a 500m row in 2 min 24 secs

Thursday:
Today's WOD consisted of modified box thrusters (squat first using a box to sit on, then push jerk) and sit ups. 

It was brutal but pushed me to go beyond my comfort zone. 


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This weekend, I'm headed out of town for a much needed girls weekend with 2 amazing friends and former coworkers from ASMSA. 

Tuesday, June 21, 2016

Week 13

Day 1: Monday-
After a week off, I'm back. And, I could not be more excited to be back---Even in the triple digit weather. I took the week to allow my shoulder to rest, but I also needed my body to rest. I have been pushing myself harder the last few weeks, so I do not lose motivation. But, I have learned that my body needs the rest as well, because I will get hurt if I don't rest. I am in the works with my doctor to get my sleep issues figured out. So, I'm hoping that will be worked out sooner rather than later. 

On to the WOD for today:
Run 1 mile (I walked and ran the laps) My time was 18 min 40 sec. I beat my last running time (it was 20 min 34 sec), so I stoked about that. 

Then, 12 min AMRAP   
24 situps
6 squat snatches 32#

I did 2 full rounds and 28 reps. 

Overall, I am satisfied with my performance today. It was a great day back. 

Day 2: Tuesday-
Complete honesty here...I did NOT want to go today. I have reached the point in my journey where in the past, I would give up.  I would be done, because it is getting harder these days. It would be easier to give up, but I really want to know what it would be like to not give up. To be able to keep going and actually reach my goal. I do not want to spend my life losing and gaining 50 lbs. Sometimes, I just wish this was easier for me. I know there isn't some pill for undoing what I have done...I didn't get like this overnight. And...with my shoulder hurting like it has been, it would be so easy for me to just 'take a break' and let that be my out. But, I do not want to be that person. Anyway, I'm not giving up...yet! 

On to today's WOD:
Buy in 30 Ring Rows
3 C & J 37# ...Still easing back into the weights due to my shoulder. 
20 air squats
5x 

Time was 15 mins 12 secs. 



Day 3: Thursday-
Honestly, I am writing this on Tuesday after this. Just catching up on my journaling...

Saturday, June 11, 2016

Week 12

Day 1: Monday-
I have had some shoulder soreness over the last two weeks. I have rested a few days here and there, but it keeps coming back. So, today I used a 17# bar for the WOD. 

11 min AMRAP

11 front squats
11 push jerks
11 hang cleans
11 situps
3 rounds 35 reps

2 min break
1 mile (6 laps) for time. My time 20 min 34 sec. 

It's Thursday night, and I have not been to CF since Monday of this week. This week has been a resting week for me. My shoulder pain just kept nagging me, and I also have just been exhausted because I'm not sleeping well at night. I have been killing it at CrossFit, and while that is great, I have to remember that my body is not used to all this intensive work. I am still carrying X amount of extra weight while doing all this. I have grown to love the intensity of CrossFit, but this week has given me some much needed time to reflect on my goals. 

I'm some what ashamed to admit, I have thought about this a time or two this week. 


Here are a few things I have taken away from this week:

1. Recovery is VERY important to the process of this journey. The last thing I need to have happen is an injury that causes me to be out for weeks or months. 

2. I should NOT feel guilty about resting and taking a break. I know it is necessary for me to take a break. I was at the point of not returning to CrossFit for a month or more, because I have been hurting everyday. Not just knee pain here, a blister on my hand, or bruises; but just sore and hurting all over. I know some soreness is normal, but it had gotten to the point where I was so uncomfortable. That's...not normal. Even for a newbie like myself, I know that's not normal.  I have been pushing myself more than normal. Here's why...I'm seeing great results from my progress at CF, and I want to continue seeing results. Honestly, I'm afraid of falling back into old habits, if I stop for too long. I have been going for 4 and 5 days the last few weeks...on top of my running program outside of CF. With my lack of sleeping at night, it has finally caught up to me. 

3. My overall health is very important to me. I went to a sleep specialist this week (it was already scheduled), and I'm waiting to hear back about an actual sleep test to be done. I have to take care of all of me, if my exercise is going to do any good. 

4. I have to listen to my body. I should have rested longer last week than I did, but kept pushing. 


What are my goals?
A. Return to the box on Monday 6/13 (if my shoulder is still feeling good). 





B. Take it slow and add the #s if I can handle it. I'm not training for the Games (yet), so I can take it easy for a little while longer. Hey, it's not like I'm trying to out do the best person in the box. I'm just there to get my exercise on, not cause injury to my poor under worked shoulders. 

C. Decrease my time at the box. Just for a few weeks, I will go back to 3 days a week. Until I see how my shoulder is handling things. 

D. Enjoy the process. Yes, even the rest days. I have really fallen in love with the process of becoming a healthier version of myself. I have learned just what I am capable of doing. I would have laughed at you a year ago if you told me I would be enjoying CrossFit this year. But, I have enjoyed pushing myself beyond my comfort zone. 




Until next week, 
Jenn

Saturday, June 4, 2016

Week 11

Day 1: Monday (Memorial Day)-

Today's WOD was a Hero WOD - Murph. In memory of Navy Lieutenant Michael Murphy. I completed a scaled version of this WOD.

Run/walk 3 laps
100 ring rows
200 push ups (modified)
300 air squats
Run/walk 3 laps

I completed 10 rounds of rr, pu, and as ...10/20/30. 

This was definitely hard for me. I started planning my attendance to today's class last week. I talked with coach about what it would look like for me to complete the scaled version of this WOD. So, I came into the Box knowing it would be difficult for me, and I would struggle. But, what better way to honor the fallen soldiers and to complete this side by side with some amazing friends and fellow Box peeps. 

How did it go? I could say it went great and I finished it, but the truth is...I came so close to giving up. I had completed 6 rounds of the WOD, and began thinking about how hard everything was getting because I was tired. I walked around for a few minutes thinking about quitting after running my last laps. But, then, I thought about how far I had come to that point. I was already sweaty, gross, and tired. I also made a promise to myself to complete this WOD because if I showed up and started it then, I'm finishing it. It doesn't matter that I finished dead last---honestly, I could get stuck on that. But, it happens so much now, that it doesn't bother me like it used to. I think about the fact that I decided to take on this challenge, and I completed it. I didn't give up...it was worth it. 

Again, the support from everyone in the Box is amazing. Two of the ladies that had finished helped me finish out my last round and my laps. The support is amazing... I mean, these ladies completed the WOD (one was wearing a vest), and then completed my last round of push ups and squats with me. Then, as if that wasn't enough, they ran/walked the laps with me. How awesome is that! This is the kind of support I need and want when things get hard in the box and want to give up. Thanks, Ladies. 


Day 2: Tuesday-

After yesterday, I was sore and couldn't walk well most of the day. So, this made for an interesting WOD today. Luckily, we do more with the barbell than anything. We had a EMOM (Every minute on the minute) for 10 minutes WOD today. We also did 5 min AMRAP of 25 double unders (50 singles for me) and 5 burpees. Yeah, I didn't finish the first round of single unders. It frustrates me to no end with those darn single unders. 

Here's to another day! 

Day 3: Wednesday-

Okay, I'm still sore from Monday. Like, cannot sit or stand without hurting sore. I am crazy enough to keep going back for more. It's become my second home here. I am getting to know these guys and ladies at the Box, and I feel comfortable enough around them to stay after and chat for a while. It's the community that I talk about here. Once again, it proves to me that this was the right box and right choice for me. 

On to the WOD...
25 wallballs
5 power snatches
x4

2k row for time. 

Y'all I beat my previous 2k row time by 44 seconds for a time of 12 minutes. How exciting is that?! I may or may not have been talking some of that, so I know I could have done better if I hadn't been talking. (Imagine that, Jennifer talking and not focusing on the task at hand.)


Day 4: Friday-
I attended the 9 AM class this morning. I really did not want to go today. After I looked at Wodify to see what the WOD was, I really did not want to go. I have been so tired this week. Monday's WOD left me feeling sore from my head to my toes. But, I got up and went before my day got started and before my brain could say "No, don't go."
25 min AMRAP
What I did (what was supposed to be done)

Row 500m (Row 500m)
50 kbs 35# (50kbs 44#)
25 box stepups (50 box stepups)
100 situps (100 situps)
no lunges (100 lunges total)
3 ring rows (50 ring rows)
no front squats (50 front squats)

Not sure why I was all over this WOD today. Anyway, I'm glad I went and got it out of the way. I usually feel better after the workout, but I was still feeling puny. 

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This week has really made me rethink this whole CrossFit thing. I wonder if I will ever get to the point where every inch of me doesn't hurt. I also know that it won't last. In fact, I'm sure by Monday, I'll be rested and ready to go again. 

Until next week, 
Jenn

Saturday, May 28, 2016

Week 10

Day 1: Monday-
Today's WOD 4 rounds of 400m Run and 10 ring rows, 10 burpees for time. It was brutal tonight. I walked most of the 400m each time. I finished at 37:17...under 40 minutes...not bad for this girl. Those dang burpees though...

Day 2: Tuesday-
Today was good, but I did not want to go. After I finished the WOD, I was glad to have finished. Of course, I was glad I went. 

I increased my power clean weight to 85# which was the Rx for the day for the women. 
Seriously, that's me ^. 

The WOD today was 11 Power cleans, 22 sit ups, and 33 box squats x5. I finished in 40 min and 8 sec. Here's to another successful day at the box. 


Day 3: Thursday-


That's the face I made today walking into Crossfit. Wednesday was a rest day for me and my shoulder. Apparently, power cleaning those 85#s was rough on me Tuesday. My shoulder hurt pretty bad, so it was much needed time off from the lifting anyway. I did week 4 day 2 of my running program, C25k. 

The WOD today was pretty good though. 15 box step ups, 15 sit ups, 30 lunges, and 15 air squats. AMRAP in 20 minutes. Pretty pleased to say I got in 3 full rounds for this WOD. My breaks are shorter these days, which is good. I am constantly trying to work on my breathing during the WOD. I seem to breath too heavy and hard sometimes. When I do that I think it slows me down even more, but today, my breathing seemed to be better and more under control. 

Day 4: Friday-
Last workout for the week was a good one. 3 clean & jerks, 11 wall balls x3, 6 squat cleans 11 wall balls x2, and 9 power cleans, 11 wall balls x 1. I finished in 15 min and 30 seconds with 75# and a 15# ball. I was hesitate to go into the box today because my shoulder is stilling hurting me. Surprisingly, my shoulder didn't hurt as much after the WOD as it did before. I'll be taking the next two days off, so it will have more time to heal. 

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Positives from this week: I did increase my weights on Tuesday. I noticed that my "rests" are getting shorter. This makes me super happy to know that I can keep going during a tough workout. Speaking of rests, I'm able to do 15 sit ups without stopping. 

One of things I have really like about this whole experience is seeing how far I have come. Not just since March, but every week, I increase in my weights, hang from the bar a few seconds longer than the week before, or whip out 15 sit ups at a time. All of this is proof how much CrossFit is working for me. Only because I have been consistent with going. It also helps that I am seeing the results sooner rather than later. 

Memorial Day is Monday. Check back next week for details on the Hero WOD we will do. I'm excited to be able to participate in this. Stay safe everyone, and as always, thanks for reading my blog and for the support. 

Jenn